its been a long long time since i last blogged. so much happenings around me. guess its true tt i only feel like bloging when im emo. [so actually when i blog my mood is not tt good, so its better if i dun blog often =p]
anyways
been nearly 4 months since i last touched this place. i went through my 3rd uni exam season, had the 2nd dec holidays, went overseas into a wonderland for a couple of days, started the 4th sem in NUS, had the best time of my life in the past few months. =) happy days, common feelings... smiles....
it comes along with bigger contrast of feelings into me also. i always try to keep myself as well as the ppl ard me as positive as i can. but sometimes, negative emotions rides me too. esp when they come from close friends. like they your best friends r in a bad situation or feeling down, you will be more affected. im in tt state now.
just read 2 of their blogs, both entries brings back memories. talking about school and jc days. i agree tt there is only so much one can do to change the situation they are in, ad how good past seems like. memories r to be cherished, build on if you can. at junctions, one needs to decide if they wanna try hard to salvage friendships. although b4 this i always thought friendships are those tt should come nature, not smt u purposely build on. but not to hide, im also at one of those junctions now. some friends r drifting apart, and i failed to realise until such late stage.
i went back to ny a couple of days ago to celebrate my friend's birthday with my ny clique. somehow when walking around the school, i have the so familar yet too strange feeling. not understanding most of the things and places and times tt went on in tt place. yet the urge of feeling of wanting to be there back again. so complicated and yet so desirable. knowing that i cant change anything now, since i made the choice to leave ny tt time, i expected a different path in front of me. but i cant help thinking back often if it is truly worth it. grass is always greener on the other side. so to me, maybe life would have been alwys better if i choose a different path, tts to stay in ny.
there is so much going on in life for me to handle at this stage. forcing me to grow up.
oki! must stop the depressive thoughts! i love my life and the way i am!~
and i will update more often now. [promise next entry wont be 4 months later =p]
