the first time i saw him, i think he is cute. all tt i can ask for, on the outside. but i know nothing about him inside.
the first time i saw HIM, i dint realise his presence, not until i get to really interact and talk along, i realise we r r similar on the inside.
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the first time i saw 他, i dint think much. is just a friend. but after some times, 他 came in slowly, and rooted its place there. and i cant get it away.
ahha, im stuck in the same situation again, thinking too much, dun know which to choice and thinking too much. when all r just friends, or maybe not.
tts wat happen when u dun have siblings ba. u dun know what is the right distance to keep btw ppl. esp of the opposite gender. sometimes u get too close, sometimes stay too far. and then the wonderful creation of smt called "mind" start working strangely and bring strange thoughts tt u can nv imagine to u.
there are times when u dint intent for things to happen and ppl just infer randomly; there are times when u dint think about things even, and when it happen u feel strange; and there are times when u r just too scared to face it for things to happen. which time is it? which character is to play?? and which role am i in for this round of game?? shall and most likely will remain unknown till i change.
i remember my milo cleque always talk about the same topic tt have gone on for like 8 yrs. [u should know what it is, if u dunt then u r not suppose to know =D ] and until now, i think i finally figured out the reason. is not cas of all the physical excuses tt i find for myself, nor is it the difference i magnified so many times for no one but myself. it is the boundary tt i build up around myself, to protect and also to isolate. we always talk about the wants the need and the truth. but actually, deep down, i dun even know myself. how can i expect to find someone tt knows me? is not about lack of confidence or any other reasons tt ppl always thought about. i cant name it either, but is just the lack of courage to present infront of the right ppl at the right time, in the right way. [tt is confidence in some way, but well i dun feel lack of confidence at all, in fact i wanna show myself better! uniquely strange idea.]
humm yap. and for now, i should stop thinking and just take life normally, and see how things go. =) after all, i love my life and no matter what, im gonna make everyday a gd one with smt happy about it. and i found my today alr. so im happy. =D
cheers <3
